Today is the 14th Anniversary of my Father's death, always a difficult day for me, no matter how many years go quietly by.... and as I write these words and tears are rolling down my face, I think of My Father and my ultimate hero, the man considered to be one of the most important Serbian literary figures of the 20th century.
Today is also the First Birthday of All Things Beautiful, the blog I started in his honor on the same day a year ago.
To say that I worshiped, admired, and adored him, would probably be the understatement of all time, and not worthy of my friends and family, who know me so well. I think of him often when I have some upstart liberal on my blog falling about, knocking furniture around the room and telling me how I don't understand what fighting for liberty and freedom of speech is all about. Perhaps I don't know or understand this new form of socialism liberals today call their own precious democracy, and perhaps I don't even want to.
They do not know me, nor do they know my family history, nor what we as a family have stood for, for generations, in our small unit nor as the family as a whole. I as a person, am much more defined by my roots, growing up quite literally living the political struggle of Democracy vs. Dictatorship. My Father lived his entire life for democracy; he truly lived and breathed its often poisonous fumes when contaminated with hypocrisy and falsehood spawned from a socialist regime; he sacrificed his own personal freedom and youth for its sake.
David Binder writing for The New York Times
A dozen years after his death Borislav Pekic is acclaimed as one of the greatest writers in the Serbian language [...]
Returning to Belgrade in the waning years of Yugoslav communism, he joined a group of dissidents including Vojislav Kostunica, now president of Yugoslavia, and Zoran Djindjic, later Prime Minister of Serbia, who was assassinated last March. In February 1990 the three men founded the opposition Democratic Party. At their convention Pekic denounced the moribund Communists: "If this system has no moral foundations, principles or laws on which we can all rely equally, it ceases to be legitimate."
Four months later he marched in a demonstration against the ruling ex-Communists of Slobodan Milosevic and was injured in a police charge [...]
My Father used to say that you can never blame others for their
cowardice. Everyone has different considerations and aspects to worry
about. Some worry about their jobs, some their very lives, some the
sponsors who keep them funded. One can only look to oneself and stand
upright for what one
believes in.
Betrayed many times by close friends, in a
totalitarian regime of former Yugoslavia, the most significant of which, resulted in being imprisoned at the age of 18 for forming the first 'Yugoslav Democratic Youth', and sentenced to fifteen years in prison (released after serving five). During this time in prison he conceived many of the ideas later developed in his major novels.
He always forgave his friends and foe alike. He said that they had
considerations of their livelihood, which he did not have to worry
about due to his privileged background. They feared for their very lives, which my Father
had given to the cause of freedom long ago. They had considerations for
their families' wellbeing, which my Father did not have (when he
married my mother he made his position clear, and she understood that,
when I came along I simply was not asked. Heh.)
He forgave them, not because they know not what they do, but because
he understood the human weaknesses and survival instincts and embraced them with the true spirit of the courageous man that he was.
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